hello reader,


Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever


It Will Get Lighter

as in

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

hiding from the rain

god being the centre magnet

autonomy of learning

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

ahnaf abrar

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

abrar?

no like which do people call me

what do you think my name is

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

i was tempted to lie about my name

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

so at the end

you cannot feed someone truth

feel you

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

Better Lift

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.