it is hopeful
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
we can only engage in such a way
Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes. The conversation drifts to the pleasantness of warm lighting and whether anyone needs a smart home. I interrupt her to make a joke about the French Raj as he runs up the causeway. We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.
hiding from the rain
My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.
kind of mythopoesis
i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it
isaac newton
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
god being the centre magnet
currently
or never left
December 2025
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful