I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

Rain, starting

Better Lift

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

it is hopeful

Better Lift

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

Style

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

currently

so the method has to be autonomous

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

no longer writing in the third person