there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala"
or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often
by memorising books. so what was taught was
always interactive. knowledge
was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read
texts.
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media,
both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
division of reality is straying away from it
i was tempted to lie about my name
god being the centre magnet
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more
personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more
romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create
within and also produce works from.
Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.
i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
