It Will Get Lighter

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

13, H, grate

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

currently

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.


something religious, a kind of complex, it will get lighter, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Worse Lift

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

hiding from the rain

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

It Will Get Lighter


think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

"Put a blanket."

send your tumblr

idk


Style

Today I felt like starting

lol

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

barren land

or never left

i have read not even 1 book

so an active mazelike process