no i haven't really read anything
which magnetises chains of pins
The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He
believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party,
shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really
challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or
baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or
whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a
pathetic "In a bit."
It Will Get Lighter
Lift Analysis
Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a
breakdown of common interpretations:
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
part of an old note. It will get lighter.
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned
and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre
of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
i have read not even 1 book
Pimlico Rats
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about...
whatever
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
