ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

I Write Goodbye Letter

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

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wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.


Style

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

Better Lift

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

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I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.


Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"
this will be about a slug

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

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It Will Get Lighter

in a post. I want to be remembered

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okay this is interesting because pedagogies we have rn are not proper models

is this you as well

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

its good

which magnetises chains of pins

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

no longer writing in the third person

magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you