Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
no like which do people call me
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems
annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder
where it goes in the day.
part of an old note. It will get lighter.
Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But
like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it
recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare
seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as
in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala"
or "guru shissho"/ "porompora"
i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was
interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
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Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but
want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm
not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way
of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel
kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about...
whatever
division of reality is straying away from it
Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life
One of the birds shoots out of the tree.