i really havent

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

hiding from the rain

currently

in a post. I want to be remembered

It Will Get Lighter

no longer writing in the third person

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

as in

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls

its good

its good

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

My inability to confront the old racist failed actor is distracting me. I decide not to tell her about it.

but i respect your search

I Write Goodbye Letter

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike