Today I felt like starting
A procession forms behind the French Raj and his fireworks bearer as they head
out the door. I've lost my Korean colleague / fresh meat in the chaos. I'm
sure he'll be able to fend for himself. They have mandatory military service
in Korea.
god being the centre magnet
i have read not even 1 book
nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry
class
i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge
management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf
It Will Get Lighter
i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason
and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging
⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️
Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion,
and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be
processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your
subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.
Lift Analysis
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Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling
trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations,
relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of
others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
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Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could
symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect
unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
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Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the
subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing.
Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk
points to transition or uncertainty.
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The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and
guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable,
suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons
that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left
unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
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Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death;
it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control.
It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.
Pimlico Rats
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems
annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder
where it goes in the day.
2 (actually index). two is company
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Slug
this will be about a slug