it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

in a post. I want to be remembered

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

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It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

something religious, a kind of complex, it will get lighter, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.


IWGD

Today I felt like starting

no longer writing in the third person

but really the thing should be autonomous

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

you have a beautiful account btw

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

Style

...

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?