Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

It Will Get Lighter

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

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She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

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ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

its good

so an active mazelike process

not their contents

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

as in

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

that looks like my instagram account

what do you mean

autonomy of learning

abrar?

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

i was tempted to lie about my name

send link

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

like first name

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

December 2025

the site i am dreaming