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the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
propensity within someone
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
magnetisation/form
i was tempted to lie about my name
feel you
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
what do you think my name is
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now