i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

was it worth it

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

and the fake qualifier

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

you know who you are. no more time, not like

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. way too specific.

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

and the fake qualifier

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

i really havent

its performative

you cannot feed someone truth

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

Hours staring at the ceiling, the wall, curling up into a ball. It seems annoyed with the light, it kind of recoils. It will get lighter. I wonder where it goes in the day.

i was tempted to lie about my name

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

It Will Get Lighter

this will be about a slug

its good

not their contents

autonomy of learning

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amazing hopefully this was all legible and frankly i might be going very off board but you seemed interesting

bro i read nothing in my life

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

whats your name?

i love it here

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

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