but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
yeah
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
currently
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
autonomy of learning
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.
like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
its performative
we can only engage in such a way
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying
stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
send your tumblr
Today I felt like starting
hiding from the rain
It's
dusk
in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.all that is to say
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
as in