Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
currently
it is hopeful
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
no longer writing in the third person
hiding from the rain
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.something religious, a kind of complex,
it will get lighter
, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
And thank you for telling me that the manner in which the narrator consistently fails to act morally is really compelling. Fuck you.
They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.
plato
i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything
lol
as in
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak