The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
"Put a blanket."
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
Lift Analysis
Today I felt like starting
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
in a post. I want to be remembered
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
really i want the internet
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever