a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

Better Lift

really i want the internet

sorry i am texting like a slav

no like which do people call me

so an active mazelike process

you cannot feed someone truth

as in

so the method has to be autonomous

its good

It Will Get Lighter

no longer writing in the third person

i want to do that too

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

all that is to say

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation