a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
.I am below everything.
Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after
dusk
, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.
it is hopeful
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever
so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.
magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation
which magnetises chains of pins
so an active mazelike process
not their contents
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
yes
but i respect your search