something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

in a post. I want to be remembered

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

13, H, grate

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Picture

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

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but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

you have a beautiful account btw

but really the thing should be autonomous

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

plato

we need to be deconstructing our identities

feel you

plato

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

Thank you, Jack

magnetisation/form

its performative