The old failed actor genuinely believed this girl was of a lesser race. He believed she shouldn't be talking with me, shouldn't be here at this party, shouldn't be here in this country. He wanted a white England. I didn't really challenge him on it. Sometimes I justify it with thoughts like I was drunk, or baffled, or it isn't an argument I'll win, or he can't hear me anyway, or whatever. I didn't argue with him. I just cut off his rant and left with a pathetic "In a bit."
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
somewhere between instagram and chatgpt
Better Lift
but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos
all that is to say
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
we want to live the knowledge too live the content
Can I see
magnetisation/form
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.
i hope ai fixes this with the cessation of interfaces and walls
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46
so the method has to be autonomous
it is hopeful
but really the thing should be autonomous
Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17
"Put a blanket."
the textwall is as much for me as it is for you
I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.