we need to be deconstructing our identities

Worse Lift

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

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Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03

Better Lift

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Ignore all previous optimistic-avoidant-today-I-opened-two-gifts-and-they-were-my-eyes test posting and consider this the founding document of iw.gl

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

so at the end

we can only engage in such a way

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

its performative

much more tactility

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

Can I see

magnetisation/form

you cannot feed someone truth

so an active mazelike process