yeah

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

Better Lift

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

all that is to say

what do you think my name is

December 2025

abrar?

i love it here

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

bro i read nothing in my life

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

i understand

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

you cannot feed someone truth

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

ahnaf abrar

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

sorry i am texting like a slav

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

autonomy of learning

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

really i want the internet

isaac newton

The only real Londoner remaining is old, bitter, kept around for entertainment, defined by tropes from 30+ years ago. They play gangsters in films, or they work in a pie and mash shop, or they go on Business Insider's YouTube channel to tell you about their crimes. And they somehow still find the time to spend all day hanging about cafes and pubs for you to bump into, to remind you of Real London.

not so on: yvf(wthw)

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

Slug