the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

i really havent

what do you mean

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

as in

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

my watchlater reached its limit years ago and now i have to create a playlist for each new topic im interested in but it is incredibly hard to create the taxonomy of knowledge because everything seems to be everything else because at the end it is what you get from it that matters not what is given

we need to be deconstructing our identities

fw

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

i love it here

ion

It Will Get Lighter

hello reader,

so an active mazelike process


you know who you are. no more time, not like

1

. way too specific.

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

propensity within someone

plato

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

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⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

god being the centre magnet

or never left

Slug

brb i will read and reply sincerely

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.