the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

hiding from the rain

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

Rain, starting

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

no longer writing in the third person

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.


Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

IWGD

in a post. I want to be remembered

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

It Will Get Lighter

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

isaac newton

bro i read nothing in my life

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

or never left

currently

division of reality is straying away from it