i really havent


She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.

Style

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

Better Lift

13, H, grate

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Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

much more tactility

I Write Goodbye Letter

magnetisation/form

what do you mean

It Will Get Lighter

I am below everything.

this will be about a slug

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

so the method has to be autonomous

division of reality is straying away from it

and the fake qualifier

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

like first name

send link

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.