Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

Rain, starting

Windrush Art Kid Oligarch

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them
"Put a blanket."

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

  1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
  2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
  3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
  4. The fox Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
  5. Death or dissolution Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

so at the end

I Write Goodbye Letter

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

It Will Get Lighter



okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

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I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

⚠️ Live Document Forever ⚠️

so the method has to be autonomous