After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
"Put a blanket."
there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.
propensity within someone
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 22:11:24
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
in a post. I want to be remembered
think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now
abrar?
bro i read nothing in my life
its good
no i haven't really read anything
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send your tumblr
whats your name?
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.
i want to do that too
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying
i really havent
feel you
so an active mazelike process