the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

no longer writing in the third person

its good

i dont understand magnetisation

so the method has to be autonomous

we can only engage in such a way

sorry i am texting like a slav

ion

mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation

no like which do people call me

i really havent

feel you

in a way what we are really interested in with pedagogy is the magnetisation

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

its performative

what do you think my name is

have you read

propensity within someone

barren land

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

lol

i understand

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

fw

Style

plato