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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

13, H, grate


the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17


something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

, something washing, cleansing, revealing, etc.

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.


Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03



Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life


Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41


it is hopeful

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

yeah