like first name

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

"Put a blanket."

but it is in my head and am i compelled to realise it, so it is my silmarillion, my tempelos

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Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

so at the end

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

we can only engage in such a way

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

so an active mazelike process

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

as in

propensity within someone

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

that looks like my instagram account

its performative

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

we want to live the knowledge too live the content

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

is this you as well

so the method has to be autonomous

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

you know who you are. no more time, not like

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