Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

Thank you, Jack

It Will Get Lighter

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

We stand there laughing. The fireworks go off behind him.

Thank you, Jack

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt

Can I see

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

so the method has to be autonomous

Lift Analysis

its performative

Rain, starting

in a post. I want to be remembered

Thank you for telling me that I'm failing to see how I'm reproducing the dynamics I'm trying to critique by only describing my Korean colleague / fresh meat and the black girl in relation to others and myself.

much more tactility

magnetisation/form

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

13, H, grate

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

December 2025