autonomy of learning

I Write Goodbye Letter

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

Maybe, Jack, I'm doing this because I'm English?

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

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It Will Get Lighter

currently

Lift Analysis

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."

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Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

it holds me to something (you, now). I love editing!

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever


I wonder if she knew I was down there listening? I wonder if she would've said something more true, more personal, more raw, more heartfelt, more harsh, more seductive, more freeing, more exposing, more risky, more romantic, more rude, more honest, more anything, if there hadn't been an audience.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

bro i read nothing in my life

He went in there with a camera to film it before he moved out of the building. He didn't think anyone would believe the story if he didn't have proof.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

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