we need to be deconstructing our identities
its good
like first name
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
ahnaf abrar
what do you mean
isaac
whats your name?
its good
isaac newton
you cannot feed someone truth
i understand
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
fw
as in
lol
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful