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Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

Today I felt like starting

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

"Put a blanket."

no longer writing in the third person

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

something religious, a kind of complex,

it will get lighter

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

I'm trying to picture the scene inside, like I was trying to picture the scene in the tree.

feel you

bro i read nothing in my life

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

so the method has to be autonomous

Worse Lift

ahnaf abrar

no i haven't really read anything

fw

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away