to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos
Today I felt like starting
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
no longer writing in the third person
in a post. I want to be remembered
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
and the fake qualifier
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike
ahnaf abrar
i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me
i really havent
send link
it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful
i was tempted to lie about my name
wait what is that
sorry i am texting like a slav
kind of mythopoesis