was it worth it

no longer writing in the third person

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

its performative

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

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Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Thank you, Jack

a version of this existed for a few months last year but it was static. it was HTML with writing and pictures and videos and sounds. i had this feeling that the code should be as important as the content, that structurally each piece in relation to each other piece shouldn't change, that the mazelike quality should emerge from me intricately arranging paths through it. like classic hypertext

brb i will read and reply sincerely

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

Worse Lift

Picture

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

i want to do that too

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

god being the centre magnet

like magnets

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

fw

ahnaf abrar

no i haven't really read anything

abrar?

send your tumblr

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class