division of reality is straying away from it

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

something for the future. something to look at when this is more. I've been thinking about... whatever

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I'm in a crowded lift and a girl I've never met tells me she thinks she might love me.
The lift won't stop at any floor, and I can't talk in front of all these people.

Their voices are saying they haven't and shouldn't fuck but want to so bad, or have fucked and can't again but want to so bad, or something like that. Would this be easier if they were birds? Incel kind of question... I'm not following the conversation, but I'm still listening. He's talking in this slightly begging way. It's a way of talking that asks for pity, like he's already tried appealing to every other one of her sensibilities. Incel kind of observation... Maybe he just talks like that, in some upspeak derivative. Haha unless?

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate

so an active mazelike process

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

so the method has to be autonomous

not their contents

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

Wed, 11 Nov 2025 21:12:41

i haven't read 100 book s so i'm probably not getting the depth of all of what you're saying

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

Garden Post-Dusk, Birds Above, In Another Life

like first name

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

i really havent

i was tempted to lie about my name

bro i read nothing in my life

no like which do people call me

abrar?

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

we need to be deconstructing our identities

i want to do that too

but i respect your search

its good