It Will Get Lighter

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

wait what is that

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

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The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

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Mon, 01 Dec 2025 23:38:15

so an active mazelike process

i love it here

all that is to say

and the fake qualifier

so at the end

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

and the fake qualifier

i want to do that too

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

feel you

i sat down to eat my peasant dinner but i thought it was a song you sent so i didn’t watch it then

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

is this you as well

autonomy of learning

or never left

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now