Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

The slug lives in my bathroom. I only see it in the early hours of the morning, when I'm not quite right.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it

I Write Goodbye Letter

It Will Get Lighter

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

not so on: yvf(wthw)

We gather around the start of a causeway down to the Thames. It's a pretty cold night and there's a breeze coming off the river.

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

ion

They're fucking around with the box. I ask her what people do with fireworks for so long before they're ready to light. She doesn't know.

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barren land

Lift Analysis

what do you think my name is

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

you know who you are. no more time, not like

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to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

1. Lift and confinement – The crowded, immovable lift represents feeling trapped or constrained in real life, either by social expectations, relationships, or internal emotions. The inability to speak in front of others suggests suppressed feelings or fear of judgment.
2. Unexpected confession – The girl saying “I think I might love you” could symbolize longing for connection or recognition. It may reflect unacknowledged desires, vulnerability, or anxiety about intimacy.
3. Forest and snow – The transition to a snowy forest signals escape into the subconscious, a place of solitude, reflection, and emotional processing. Snow often represents purity, stillness, or emotional coldness, while dusk points to transition or uncertainty.
4. The fox – Foxes are traditionally symbols of cunning, intuition, and guidance, but here it’s more ethereal: its bites are gentle yet noticeable, suggesting a confrontation with subtle truths, small regrets, or lessons that must be acknowledged. The unspoken apology indicates things left unresolved or feelings that cannot be expressed.
5. Death or dissolution – Dying in the dream often doesn’t mean literal death; it represents transformation, the end of a phase, or surrendering control. It can indicate letting go of fear, old habits, or emotional blockages.

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate