its performative

I catch him on his way to the bar, telling him about this old racist failed actor that I'm avoiding. That I'm failing to confront. I get the sense he's avoiding people too. We get our drinks and find a corner. We chat for a bit. He's managing just fine.

confused - is it the tide or its absense? I still like where I was going with it. anyway, real reader know this site is the note.

I Write Goodbye Letter

have you read

its good

okay im going very rogue and very inarticulate

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

magnetisation/form

i love it here

yeah

wow, you are the first stranger to write a textwall to me

i dont understand magnetisation

you cannot feed someone truth

somewhere between instagram and chatgpt


division of reality is straying away from it

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak

Like the tide, it comes in and it washes over the beach. It's beautiful. But like the tide it goes out, sometimes it goes out further than it ever has, it recedes back across the beach and further out beyond the horizon. The bare seabed opens up in front of you and all you can do is look at it.

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

2 (actually index). two is company

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

and the fake qualifier

i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Worse Lift

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

Better Lift

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

or never left

your feed looks like my tumblr