i don't really want to be associated with that one for some reason

a lot of what i've been doing has been some imaginary screenshot or recording of his website, something that could be found within it

in a post. I want to be remembered

no longer writing in the third person

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

13, H, grate

all that is to say

autonomy of learning

we can only engage in such a way

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

"No, it'll get cold!"
"Put a tut ahh put a-"

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

Better Lift

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

One of the birds shoots out of the tree.

the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

so the method has to be autonomous

The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.

but i respect your search

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Rain, starting

i really havent

Slug

As I'm trying to tell my Korean colleague / fresh meat that this is abnormal, that most people in England aren't like this, the host of the party emerges from the bathroom to a roar of laughter and applause. He's a fat middle aged Frenchman and he's changed into traditional Indian dress and a turban. He looks fucking ridiculous. I try to back away, to avoid the inevitable photo of me in this moment that will one day appear to ruin my life, but everyone is crowding around, trapping me in the middle of it.

"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."