with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

no longer writing in the third person

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

It Will Get Lighter

Style

hiding from the rain

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:27:13

Rain, starting

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 23:49:08

IWGD

i dont understand magnetisation

so an active mazelike process

in a post. I want to be remembered

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things 

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like people can read 100 books and still not have the fire within them

division of reality is straying away from it

or never left

not their contents

i want to do that too

currently

as in