i see a website

way too random but already engaging. i want to explore it


13, H, grate

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

It Will Get Lighter

It Will Get Lighter


no longer writing in the third person

Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49

Better Lift

in a post. I want to be remembered

Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

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Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

i am quite illiterate on producing technology

but really the thing should be autonomous

that is unstable and lets me operate in that discovery mode that i can create within and also produce works from.

i got bored though because i knew all of the different arrangements of it. i probably needed to stick at it longer to get it dense enough to feel navigable in a way that was engaging to me

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.

it exists in my head in some way that i'm trying to get out i lied on my story a little bit because i'm mostly feeling it and thinking about it. feeling something deeply doesn't necessitate any kind of deep relevance or whatever but the thinking is useful

ion

all that is to say

division of reality is straying away from it

propensity within someone

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

so an active mazelike process

hiding from the rain

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.