There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

13, H, grate


I wonder if the birds knew I was watching?

Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

"Anyway, you're you. I mean, look at you!" she says. "You could get with anyone, anyone in the street. Really."

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

really i want the internet

Sun, 23 Nov 2025 10:37:17

hiding from the rain

no longer writing in the third person

but i respect your search

so i or you can author smaller fragments that get arranged

Can I see


the textwall is as much for me as it is for you

it is hopeful

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

you cannot feed someone truth

Today I felt like starting

Thank you, Jack

He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

Pimlico Rats