ahnaf is it worth reading all those books
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting
Mon, 03 Nov 2025 08:38:49
the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
This is a website run by a narcissist who can't produce anything without the hope that it is seen and loved but can't act due to the fear of it being seen and hated. They immediately feel the need to ask Jack GPT to define whatever this feeling is in the hope that understanding it will mean control over it and control over it will mean that they can stop it.
this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet
Thu, 06 Nov 2025 21:22:59
i know a little bit of lacan which probably influences me in a way i cant articulate
so the method has to be autonomous
no longer writing in the third person
Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50
a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.
I created this site
.fw
i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it
its performative
theres a kind of a cowardice to generative art that i want to avoid though. i want the kind of relationship to this thing that a game designer has to a game engine
like magnets
its good
i love to walk around and see things and take photos and go online and look at websites and click on links and take screenshots i love to surf and i love to browse
ion
propensity within someone
bro i read nothing in my life
plato
"I'm only attracted to you", he replies. "Like, you only."
i did until you asked which kind of gave it away
the only things i have read are just excerpts and 1 dialogue by plato fully and mcluhan's medium is the massage but it cannot be considered a book
ahnaf is it worth reading all those books