Thu, 06 Nov 2025 23:18:46

that looks like my instagram account

we need to be deconstructing our identities

like magnets

feel you

yeah people dont get it they assume its ahnaf

ahnaf is it worth reading all those books

ahnaf abrar

nope. i only remember the leaves bristling behind the window during chemistry class

yeah

its good

2 (actually index). two is company

Dreams like these are highly symbolic and emotionally intense. Here’s a breakdown of common interpretations:

i did until you asked which kind of gave it away

its good

I'm sat out the front of a cafe in Hatton Garden. I've just eaten a brie and bacon panini, and I'm rolling a cigarette. Feeling very London. An old man comes up to me and asks for a roll-up. I oblige.

and so on. not wanting the rhyming / clanging

i really havent

was it worth it

it is hopeful

i believe search always should be immersive, because whatever is pre planned and non consuming (what you are looking for is total engulfment by the spectre of the real), a joyous intensity, a flow of virtue

Above and in front two birds are darting in and out of a tree. Sometimes they collide to fight or maybe mate, but I can't really make it out in the low light. It's just after

dusk

, I have nothing to do, I'm watching them, trying to figure it out.

i was tempted to lie about my name

He was a proper old-fashioned London geezer (cringe word, hate it, can't think of a better one, worst of all it's the correct word), kind of East Endy, kind of Real London, the kind you don't really meet but if you do it always feels like an uncanny immersive theatre experience. They're anachronistic. They only belong in the London collectively imagined by people who don't spend any time in it.

The studio designs some piece of media to perpetuate the marketable concept of Real London, while the real London is hollowed out by hollow bankers or whatever. Not pulling on that thread. But the yuppies don't mind because they're free to iterate on Real London without any competition from real London because it's too concerned with its slow eradication. And there's nice flats to live in now or whatever. The yuppies can begin to inhabit their Real London.

this is possible in mazelike research sprints on the internet

i am quite confused, not quite getting the idea of it

part of an old note. It will get lighter.

so the method has to be autonomous