the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

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Today I felt like starting

i see a website though something that reconfigures or is mazelike

stalgivc is the greatest poster of all time

kind of mythopoesis

that looks like my instagram account

Overall meaning: The dream seems to explore vulnerability, unspoken emotion, and the tension between connection and isolation. It suggests you may be processing intense feelings of longing or missed opportunities, and your subconscious is guiding you to acknowledge, release, or transform them.

to work in time to get to the timeless, perfection thru chaos

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

I've found the girl, or she's found me, and we're smoking a cigarette while we watch the silhouettes of the French Raj and his fireworks bearer down on the bank.

we can only engage in such a way

We look out over the river to a block of luxury flats built on the site of some old docks. It would be nice to live right there. Yes.

i struggle with building a personal technical architecture for storing media, both curation and creation. instead i bookmark everything

autonomy of learning

there is a distinction between western-modern pedagogical systems that's like text-based as in a legal method but there is an idea of "pathshala" or "guru shissho"/ "porompora" i mean how masters relayed knowledge to the student by (oral) transmission often by memorising books. so what was taught was always interactive. knowledge was interactive, you spoke with people rather than read texts.

so at the end

it is hopeful

think this is much more rhizomatic or immanent or mazelike than mainstream education now

Thank you, Jack