the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.
She says something that isn't really right but isn't really wrong. I'm not taking in their words any more, just their voices, trying to get a feel for whatever is going on between them. I'm imagining what it's like for them in this delicate situation, what I would say if it were me. She has that perfect upper-class accent, and she's using whatever upper-class tact that comes with it to navigate this. Style. They can't be together, but their voices are betraying them.
Thu, 04 Dec 2025 11:31:03
Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.
The bird dives back into the tree. It shakes, some leaves fall.
in a post. I want to be remembered
god "possessing" artists "possessing" people
mazelike/rhizomatic/immanent/emergent are not antithetical to a transcendent real but its very manifestation
like first name
magnetisation basically means the induction of divine form unto you
Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03
propensity within someone
feel you
magnetisation/form
is this you as well
no like which do people call me
with this post net clarity and the hours of nothing that followed I realise this is going to be awful.
you cannot feed someone language, they have to speak
She closes the window. I wasn't paying attention anyway, I'm getting cold, and the birds are nowhere to be seen. I go inside.