was it worth it

the point of this was to try and avoid this narcissistic death spiral I'm in by acting anonymously and impulsively. how can that feeling that even Jack can't describe paralyse me if my name isn't next to any of this? the excitement of believing I just need a new process has overcome me and I have cummed out an empty webpage.

There is a pause. She ashes her cigarette. It falls on me. It seems like the birds have stopped too.

there's probably something in that, but I don't feel like thinking about it too much yet.

Rain, starting

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Tue, 02 Dec 2025 11:29:50

FOUNDING DOCUMENT

I am below everything.

Imprint, memory, impact, representation, impression

a heavy, heavy rain. a clear day.

I created this site

.

It's

dusk

in a snowy forest and I'm playing with a fox.
It bites my wrist but there is only a dull ache.
I feel that it wants to say sorry but can't. I die.

in a post. I want to be remembered

Above and behind a window opens and a cigarette hangs out.

so magnetisation means the divine spirit acting thru u endowing you with its qualities

i guess imagine a multimedia obsidian or notion that behaves according to some insane arcane rules that you can't ever really determine

that looks like my instagram account

what do you mean

your feed looks like my tumblr

i have read not even 1 book

lol

I know that if I try to make this entry any more than it is I will ruin it.

i hadn't considered this pedagogically or as a kind of personal knowledge management system (puke) at all but i suppose it is both of those things

its good

It Will Get Lighter

Sun, 02 Nov 2025 21:54:03

i was tempted to lie about my name

After thinking and forgetting and thinking and forgetting